I have come to the realization that what I did was very selfish and egotistical. What if that someone else that I could possibly have lost over worldly worries. I will be more kind with my words because my family trusts me alot and I love them for that. It some times amazes me how much trust they put in me, so it is a blessing and I am not going to take that for granted.
I love them with all my heart and I do not doubt for one bit at all that all that love is returned or even more.
My mother was making dua aftur and all the things she was praying for were almost all the worries that I have. She loves me and wishes nothing but the best for me so I am going to do my best to make her life the most happiest I could possibly make.
This is by doing all the small things that matter such as only exchanging kind words even when we are joking around because I have seen that words can hurt and my mother never forgets anything.
D told me that she missed me and that was nice to hear but I have to be careful not to compromise my beliefs and morals just do I can have a friend.